shattered;

Thursday, November 30, 2006
9:12 PM

since when did it start all over again?
oh now fcuking ignore me
cause am not worth it to talk to huh.
and i never knew you were that blind
or is it just me?

; covering up
i think that's what i do best.

fix me in.45


Tuesday, November 28, 2006
10:45 PM

life's like a roller coaster,
but with more downs than ups.

a betrayal of thoughts.
just go and die yeah

fix me in.45



3:07 PM

went school ytd and had some erm. gateway bonding cause apparently no one heard me when i said "can go alr lah" haha! then went macs for lunch w may jun xm and jiayin. then went to watch STEP UP! w them at j8. omg lah the show is damm nice. esp the dancing part :D then hung out there until 6plus and went to meet my mum at wisma to shop. but i didnt buy what i wanted to buy in the end lah ):

why do i keep starting,
only to hurt myself in the end?

fix me in.45


Sunday, November 26, 2006
3:09 PM

i just realised how much freaking homework i've got to do and all the tests to study for next year. including the fact that i've hardly ever paid attention in class for all the extra lessons so now i have totally no idea what the hell is going on.

and i left just less than 15days of my holidays to complete everyth, EXCLUDING going out. unless i plan to pack my textbooks into my luggage, which i obviously dont.

i think i'm either going to die from not doing homework, or die from figuring out how to do them. sad huh ):

fix me in.45


Saturday, November 25, 2006
11:42 PM

cherish every moment for what it's worth
cause in time, there's no replay;
memories are only those that last.
sometimes they dont even last forever.

sometimes i just need that reassurance.

and you gave it to me,
knowing that i'm not alone
it was great talking to you.

fix me in.45


Friday, November 24, 2006
8:21 PM

i went out even though i was sick, so now.
my eyelids feel so heavy but i dont really care,
my head feels so light but i dont really care,
my throat feels so sore but i dont really care,
my nose feels so blocked but i dont really care.
smart huh?

casino royale 007 :D
but dinner was so not fun cause someone forced me to eat that i actually finished one whole 'shrooms' meal though i had NO appetite can. i guess that was my breakfast + lunch + dinner.

who's rachel tay? ><

fix me in.45


Thursday, November 23, 2006
6:54 PM

camp's over! is kind of sad yeah. my last guides camp ( now i so regret not going in sec one ) , and probably my last camp ever in my secondary school life.

there's so much i want to say,
but i'll just cut it out.


am counting tissue papers :/

fix me in.45


Saturday, November 18, 2006
6:21 PM

cant get it off my mind,
sometimes I ask myself
WHY.

fix me in.45


Friday, November 17, 2006
11:36 PM

stayed back w jun, may, xm and hilda! we purposely called our parents to say that we'll wait for them, just to hand out. just like how we did last yr, on the last day of school. at 5pm, me and xm went to amk central to buy envelopes and bubble tea and went back to school at like 6. then may and hilda went out to 7eleven when we came back haha!

then jun came back from making her specs and me her and xm sat at the family lounge and talked. and xm going back to australia next year. so sad! my dear friend! then we were talking about which friends are closer and friendship...and we found out we feel alike! so anyway, she said her name is apparently complex so jun suggested she rename herself so the ang mohs can pronounce her name. betty wong xunmin!

decided that the clouds were nice so me xm and jun went to roof top garden. was damm funny lah. we were trying to avoid the tchrs walking by the staffroom so we ran out of the staircase to the rooftop garden then BOOM. two tchrs were just right in front haha! so we pretended to GREET THE CLOUDS and enjoy the scenery! they left and we snapped pics and started singing this totally retarded made-up song to the tune of campfire's burning

tay's butt is burning
tay's butt is burning
draw nearer,draw nearer,
in the sunlight, in the sunlight
come smell and be merry
tay's butt is burning now,
tay's butt is burning now
tay's butt is burning now,
tay's butt is burning now
draw nearer,draw nearer
sitting by her butt and taking in the smell
smelly,
smelly smelly poopoo
smelly
smelly poo poo
pooooot

and made me set as RINGTONE hahha! then we did that Gatsby song too and recorded it. and we told xunmin to dye her hair blonde in australia and do moehog ! so we made another song with actions and filmed it on my phone ! it was DAMN funny i had to stuff it in my shoelace and jun elevated it to such an angle so we could see all of us in the screen so the basically held her leg in that excruciating position for all our failed attempts !
(in deep and retarded voice)
if you're happy and you know it clap your hair (claps moehog)
if you're happy and you know it clap your hair
if your happy and you know itand you really wanna show it
if you're happy and you know it clap your hair (clap clap)

when we knew may and hilda were coming to look for us, we hid behind the stairs and played the song haha! then we live demo the whole song to them and laughed like hell lah. then we 3 ran to the other side of the roof top garden and LIE LOW! like the davinci code body hahah!

hilda bought ear biscuits !
heres the conversation with the stupid angmoh called xm
huda:i like ear biscuits !
xm:what are those ?
huda:take..i like to eat them layer by layer
may: me too !!!!!
xm: ohhh i know these ! but (inspetcs biscuit sideways) theres only one layer what !
may: layers as in INWARDS, not thick-wise !

haha! it started to get dark and we played lie low for most of the time and sang campfire songs ! but first a spot of astronomy.

may:i see saturn !
jun: i see mercury !
me :may, thats a plane -.-
xm: you're so anticlimax!

we went on shrieking until a teacher (OCC) walked along ! ah ! it was damn funny we leaped up and it was so embarrassing cos she saw us with out legs up against the railing and our arms up in the air screaming planet names ! oops ! was so scared she would report us to suzzie. but she didnt cos we're still alive (:

we sang and sang and sang.. and played peaceby the river with our feet ! there were really alot of stars that night, the sky was so pretty :D then we saw louiza and someone on the specs stand..threw and ear biscuit to them to try ! we bluffed them that we were selling on the roof garden and xunmin just turned around and announced to the trees: hi, would you like an ear biscuit ? then the minute they lost the tiny biscuit we threw we lay low and ignored them !

xm pretended to be a monster.
xm:raaaaaaarh ! -whispers- scream !
all: AHHHHHHHHH !
xm: -spastic face-BAH !
hilda laughed so hard and weirdly we all started laughing at her ! sang christmas songs and stuff and laughed like shit cos we kept shooting up when we heard footsteps. went to fam lounge then to the playground. but before that we marched pass the STAFFROOM singing the IF YOU'RE HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT, CLAP YOUR HAIR song. haha! at the playground we marched down the hill too and then marched back up singing songs again haha! then we sat at that high thing and sang CANON. which i went lalalal most of the time cos i keep forgetting where/what am suppose to be singing!

then parents called and off home we went. which was like 9pm alr. haha! and we greatly embarrassed ourselves by screaming in the fam lounge when we saw this HUGE HUGE cockroach flying o.O

(part of this is copied from jun!)
had the time of my life this evening/night. and we were saying how is probably the last(and first for jun and Hilda!) time we'll ever do this.
17nov 2007. if the gates are locked, we're going to climb over. haha!
a yearly affair huh. but sadly it'll only happen probably just once more in our lives.

i kind of want next yr to pass over quickly cos of O's and all, yet i dont want it to ever pass, if possible. i'll miss all of these kind of times forever, and the people. i want to remember this day forever, we all want to!


this is just the beginning of the story;
ups and downs.


fix me in.45


Sunday, November 12, 2006
5:10 PM

confirmation yesterday! :D
the end, yet the start.

went vivo after that for dinner to celebrate my uncle's birthday. shopped around before that and my dad definetely has WEIRD taste. then played the xbox game "burnout" at best with my cousins. is damm fun omg. like must crash all the cars to win haha! and i learnt never to go shopping in too high heels ever again!


from the start to the end, i stood there all alone.
it's kind of sad, but at least it's all over.

fix me in.45


Thursday, November 09, 2006
4:01 PM

hello since this blog is so dead i shall blog blog blog something INTERESTING for once on rtyms blog. :D
hahah hello rachel.
i decided to go into your account to read all the posts about last years stuff!
you lost your bet, buying me my action city crocodile tigger :D
and KUCHA. <3


was also reading all your lame invasions, and i guess now you have another invasion to add to your list of lame invasions :D

fix me in.45


Wednesday, November 08, 2006
8:51 PM

5 days w/o coming online! :D

so friday. had gateway. was pretty fun yeah. and walking in the mud w/o our shoes! but was quite slow lah.

saturday. retreat from like 7am to 9pm. no sleeping late again ): kind of sad it's the last cat class yeah. mel, i'll miss you!

sunday. hosted china scholars. me and xm went shopping after that! and she kept complaining how ex the fall out boy cd was -.-

monday. discussed about the night treadure hunt thing. omg damm fun! please lah can dont be so scared of YOURSELVES so easily not ar. abit we kept digressing. yeah DIGRESSING's everyone's new favourite word. haha!

tuesday. I FINALLY DIDNT NEED TO GO SCHOOL FOR LESSONS. cos i was researcher for that conference thing :D (i didnt do anyth anw) but had gateway -.- and it sort of failed o.O

today. went to that asia pacific mock conference thing and got my storybook confiscated. but it was so boring lah. especially being the pathetic AUDIENCE -.- what else can we do ar. sian lah.


intelligent answers.

fix me in.45


Wednesday, November 01, 2006
1:10 PM

cancelled out.

fix me in.45