Monday, October 31, 2005
3:17 PM
There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go
I never said thank you for that
I thought I might get one more chance
What would you think of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Hear you me, my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
So what would you think of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Hear you me, my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in
(May angels lead you in)
May angels lead you in
(May angels lead you in)
And if you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
A song for a heart so big
God wouldn't let it live
May angels lead you in
Hear you me, my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in
Hear you me, my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
i want to explain but i know i cant
sorry for all the hurt i brought you
i cant believe i actually did such a thing
of evyone it had to be you.
when i look back i see
all those happy moments we had
but why did we have to part
after so much we shared.
i need to give you a reason
for all the wrong(or right?)i've done
i HAVE to tell all of you out there
no, it is not what you think(?) it is.
it DOES hurts to see u sad,
it hurts to see u smile.
fix me in.45
Sunday, October 30, 2005
2:15 PM
too quick, too fast
it'll never go away
no, it WILL go away
but i dont want it to fade away
ever
am still sick
oh gosh did i become worse?
am losing my voice too.
simply unavoidable;
fix me in.45
Saturday, October 29, 2005
2:45 PM
SICK.
i woke up with a very bad stomachache this morning and it has lasted until now la. abit having diarrhoea also. didnt want to go to school but i HAD to cos it's the last day of school.
i cant believe the year's over. that i'll never be able to go on toilet trips with my dear muddy ever again. thanks for everything yea. once again, i give these words back to you too : what you've done for me cannot be expressed in words. am listening to the whole disc of songs. damm touching la can. i started crying and now i cant stop. i just cant believe how time past so fast. I'LL MISS YOU. i'll miss evyone of you. i cant carry on saying anything else or i'll just cry harder.
gosh my stomach hurts like shit la. i need the toilet!!!!
fix me in.45
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
10:05 AM
damm it. shldn't have cut my hair. my mum made me cut short cos she says i keep going to the hairdresser. =/ now i look absolutely stupid la. am so totally embarrassed. NO FACE liao la. ><
was slapped, called some idiotic names and all those stupid stuff this morning. am sorry i really didnt mean it. i just make too many mistakes, fail to many times to correct myself. i still dont get why i was so wrong.
i got in. so what. the ultimate choice is mine. you say u're not forcing me but you aren't giving me any more choices. i just wanna think it over. i dun wanna do sth i regret.
i shldn't have tried so hard, not getting in wld have given me the frredom to choose.
just get out of my life and leave me alone. stop controlling me, it hurts.
fix me in.45
Monday, October 24, 2005
3:36 PM
have written farewell notes/letters for 11 ppl alr, 7 more to go.
to those i dont noe wat to write, is cos ive got only one thing to say.
WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME CANNOT BE DESCRIBED IN WORDS. ><
to those am not writing to, am sorry but i just cant write to evyone.
i realise writing these stuff can be emotionally draining, we've got 3 days left tgt as TWO FAITH but is like it's all over, we're all parting alr for good or for bad.
i shall cont tmr. XD
fix me in.45
11:52 AM
sometimes i just feel like asking you to...
sometimes i just feel that life is just not worth living
what's the point of evything seeming so perfectly right when it's not?
i just wanna get rid of this all
i didnt noe there was a ONE TREE HILL book, read it until i cried la.
is so touching and just so damm nice XP
I GOT BACK MY INTERNET!! haha.
fix me in.45
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
10:13 PM
get out of mine,
get on with urs.
i dont understand.
fix me in.45
9:35 AM
am in this state of moodlessness, in which i dunno wat i feel.
my frens kept asking why i so sian today but seriously I DUNNO WHY EITHER.
maybe YOU do. haha.
am becoming weird and retarded. and emotional too?
haha. i dunno wat the heck is happening to me and my life. it's becoming just so PERFECT.
all i know is that am DUMB. SLOW. STUPID. and HOPELESS. haha.
i threw it all away.
you are willing to hold on.
let me go.
fix me in.45
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
12:15 PM
class outing on friday was so damm fun though it was sad at the end.
7 days left tgt yea. su's gone alr yea. he gave some speech made me feel i dunno wat.
started crying when i saw gero cry. couldnt help it ;( time flys. haha.
went to malaysia on sat and sun and shopped like siao.
AH SHIT I PUT ON WEIGHT LA!
shall jian fei YAY! haha. bfore i turn more obese than i alr am. ><
got back the rest of my results today.
oh wells am very happy with my results though i failed some stuff but I DUN CARE yay.
cher gave me and erica one more chance for mep but i think i'll just fail AGAIN.
i look like i very can learn two pieces and play them in one day la.
dun be sad alr yea. XD
thankyou
fix me in.45
Friday, October 14, 2005
11:45 AM
GAMES CARNIVAL!
ok we got 3rd overall YAY!
all the games sides soccer got into semis at least :)
and we WON floorball XP and carrom i think.
din even win a single game for soccer though.
cld have won the last one.
cos of me we din.
the goal was right in front of me but somehow i kicked the ball the other side.
am sorry kaes ppl.
told ya i shouldnt have played.
watched GOAL! with mel and rg after school.
tell you is a damm nice show.
and it's not just bout soccer honestly.
is damm sad too.
apparently was touching till i cried la ;(
haha. GO WATCH IT! haha.
whee tmr got class outing!
eh shld go bath now haha.
abit games carnival i got so dirty + sweaty + muddy and covered with grass.
but i until now still haven't bath yet haha.
and am putting my dirty legs on the table.
how disgusting am i? haha ><
eh i just realised there's this huge blueblack on my knee
for hitting it against the forum step by accident.
wasnt walking properly HAHA.
and my nose and cheeks are all red. my fren says is sunburn.
but apparently THERE WAS NO SUN TODAY LA.
haha.
fix me in.45
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
10:00 PM
finally i dun owe anyone orange bowl haha.
but MY COKE FLOAT! ><
din tiao in the end though i think i will die on mon.
results were like SHIT cept hist.
eng one of the lowest in e cls and probably e level too la.
chi-HENG I PASS HAHA!
went to buy bbq stuff for cls outing on FRIDAY!
we were desperately calling ppl to help to bring stuff home tmr la.
but apparently we have yet to find ppl to bring plates cups etc. and ohya ICE haha.
i think we'll die bringin the stuff to east coast HAHA.
but nvm. i so cant wait for friday. and tmr yea.
GAMES CARNIVAL wheee.
sheesh am say APPARENTLY again. ><
i wanna see!
fix me in.45
9:50 AM
am so gonna die.
maybe i shall just pon camp.
or just gan cui tiao lou zi sha.
haha. probably i wld anw.
when am getting back my results tmr.
this may well be the last time am blogging. HAHA.
fix me in.45
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
1:17 PM
YAY! i managed to wake up haha.
YES THANK ME! and feel lucky that i was feeling nice HAHA.
yeah i noe ur ORANGE BOWL la. one day soon kaes. XP
and am still waitin for my COKE FLOAT haha. ><
went back to slp aft a long long time haha.
and woke up late whee.
maylee naerly killed me. but xm was later. by a min YAY!
watched into the blue at orchard.
i tell you that shows damm nice!!! haha.
though me and may were freaked MANY TIMES! XD
we were grabbing each other and covering our eyes ( i noe v dan xiao)
while xm sat there like nth happen like this. NO FEELING ONE! haha.
met faith leong. or at least i think she is.
cldn't recognise her. she called me. haha.
she looks so diff. XD
went to bits and pieces after the movie.
we bought and engraved rings. haha.
were jk only at first but really did it in the end HAHA.
has 3 letters on it. i shant say wat but I LOVE IT yay!
i hope you're not reading this.did i tell you i love the ring? ><
fix me in.45
Monday, October 10, 2005
4:41 PM
eh i just finished my blogskin yea.
though it looks damm horrible due to my poor it skills,
am happy tt am finally done YAY!
tmr's here.
am supposed to repay my meaness by wishing you good luck.
oh wells. i shant do it now cos it's cheating haha.
shall be truthful and wake up later.
pray i dun off e alarm and go back to slp HAHA.
GERO JINX!
fix me in.45
12:25 PM
ONE TREE HILL!!!
ok am very hyper. haha.
i missed the show la. ;(
hmph.
today last repeat somemore.
cos had to go to my ah-ma house.
eh i just realised that games carnival's on THURSDAY!!!
THIS thursday!!
ok am slow. due to the CRAZY FROG songs am listening too now.
haha. have become so mentally retarded and slow la.
am laughing to myself.
maybe is cos of DTT also la.
haha. INFLUENCE!!! XD
i so cant wait for games carnival yea.
am playin SOCCER!!!
i miss FLOORBALL! i miss our SLIVERSTICKS!!
but got no choice cos a lot of ppl wanna play floorball.
but SLIVERSTICKS FOREVER yea.
haha.
seriously am hopeless at soccer too.
think i'll just embarrass myself by kicking AIR instead of the ball HAHA.
I WAN CLASS TEE!!!
our 2nd CLASS OUTING's on FRIDAY!!! 141005.
i so cant wait for that day either yea.
it'll be our farewell to su too.
at least this time is not at pasir ris (ok i dunnno how to spell HAHA) again.
down there was so err... la.
haha. we're going EAST COAST yay! pit i forgot wat again haha.
cant wait for thurs and fri but first gotta go through wed first.
i dun wan that dad to come la.
getting back results that day. :( haha.
i realise i crap alot this days eh.
post exam syndrome. haha.
and yea. GOODLUCK for ur exams.
in case i forget tmr. -grins- haha.
fix me in.45
Saturday, October 08, 2005
3:15 PM
my blog has been stagnant for like wat 5 weeks la.
cant believe i actually survived 5 weeks w/o the com haha.
got my piano exam results like 3weeks ago.
you wouldnt believe how badly i've done la.
nvm, at least i get a FREE COKE FLOAT.
COKE FLOAT IS BETTER THAN ORANGE BOWL!!! XD
but seems like the whole of spore.
macs coke float out of stock la. =/
then my second one was like shit.
am very confident i just flunk it again.
and if i do i get i forget how many more drinks.
haha though i seriously rather buy the drinks then get them.
yea and right after my piano exam.
had mep prac right the next day.
sucked like i dunno wat la.
in front of her i
ren like siao la.
then when i walked back to the other room.
i couldn't take it anymore yea.
and yea. i cried.
ran out of the room with my fren.
sat at the new specs so that no one else would see me.
the tears just kept on flowing.
went home and cried again.
i dunno why also but i couldnt help it.
wrote a damm vulgar letter cos i was feeling just so..
thought i lost it but i found it in the end haha.
that was two weeks ago.
ve gotten over it. ve stopped crying.
but i'll never forget those words you said.
they just keep replaying in my head.
it's like i cant find the stop button.
past 5 weeks have been exams and yea.
so much has happened too.
life really sucked. had mood swings.
didnt noe wat the heck was happening to me.
went really mental at some point.
i still cant figure out what happened.
life still sucks and it will cont this way.
am sure it will.
it's just so fated.
but for now. WHO CARES.
EXAMS' OVER though they sucked too.
am very sure i failed. ive alr failed in fact.
haha.
heck my eoys la.
went out with ericageroangelinejolenesiyijingwenjohsi tday after mep.
we did nth but walk. and walk.
until everyone was so damm tired and went home at 3pm.
but me.went to citylink ALONE.
to look for MCFLY album.
cos tt guy in the heeren hmv told us that it was out of stock.
but apparently it was it hasnt even been released in singapore la.
but nvm, the antisocial side of me enjoyed being alone.
just walking round the mall made me happy i duuno why.
met mel at j8 for dinner at 5.
and we reached church at 745.
for like the first time in our lives.
we were EARLY. ok it may not be early to others.
but yea its early to us. considering how late we always are. haha.
somehow i suddenly love mcfly.
must have been influenced by gero.
last time keep sending me mcfly songs.
nowadays i keep listening to them.
think they're meaningful haha. XD
am left with like 5bucks and nothing else.
totally broke alr.
and am going out again la.
i dunno how am gonna survive. HAHA.
spent the money buying STUFF.
and YOU will noe on TUES.
so stop asking me haha.
seriously i say until damm obv just now la.
just that you din listen carefully.
haha.
ok i crapped ALOT today.
shall stop before i go bonkers blogging.
- is it us or is it you? i'll wait for you to change, i'll wait for the truth to come one day.
fix me in.45
